if you don't want this to happen ever again, please try to blog more often!? heheh.
its so depressing to visit your blog and realise that you haven't updated your blog yet. :(
so here i am! helping you. no need to thank me though. i did it voluntarily because i love you. heheh. :)
i was on the phone with this babe last night despite the fact that i have a chemistry exam on monday. we were on the phone for more than 2 hours. i'm pretty sure it would have gone on longer if not for this babe's phone batt going FLAT. oh wells.
for lolo : thanks babe for listening to me go on and on about everything. it was perhaps boring but i really appreciate it. and it was nice to hear from you again - from releasing my anger upon hearing the 'news' from you who is already very disgusted by it to figuring ways to help one of our poor dear friends back home and all the other things we talked about in between. tee hee. but hrmm, yeah, so pitiful huh? but then again, guys are losers. not all, but most of them are. agreed? and the change from msn to the phone was pretty good. after all, change normally does one good. don't you think so? it gives you the space you crave for to breathe once in a while.
for cyn: it was really nice to catch up with you again the other night. talking about cute guys and err..rankings. heheh. you have no idea how much i miss you. and are you getting hotter by the day? hot stuff hot stuff! *psst..sizzle sizzle* just dont let it get to your already hugeeeeee ego and you'll be fine. ;)
and as for my poor dear friend whom i would just let remain anonymous, if you happen to be reading this, know that i am here for you always. anytime, anyday. i'm sorry i haven't been much of a friend to you lately. been busy and all each time you try to chat with me online. i swear you have given up on me already because we hardly talk nowadays. but then again, its my fault. for knowing that something is wrong but not making an effort to do something about it. i promise i will catch up with you real soon. and sweetie, please remember that no matter what happens, you still have friends like lolo, cyn and me who cares about you truckloads. :) i still remember the times when we were both on the phone going on and on about our guy problems and the solutions given by cleo mags. *sigh* those were the days..
honestly, i know how you feel. you know you are much better off if you let him go. but you just want to hold on for as long as you can no matter how much it hurts you inside to do so. because you are afraid of loneliness. and you don't want to go from a feeling of familiarity to a whole new environment and lifestyle - one where you have to be independent and know that he wont be there to catch your every fall like he used to.
i just want you to know that its okay to be single. its okay to feel that sense of loneliness. its not wrong. it doesnt make you any different or any less special. because etched in our hearts, you are FOREVER special. remember that. :) and its okay to make mistakes in life. after all, we learn from our mistakes and we learn new things everyday. you'll be in my prayers. i'll pray for you to be brave enough to stand up for yourself one day soon. and be able to go on a better life path. don't be afraid or let him threaten or scare you. because even if he is not going to be there to catch your every fall, you've got us to do just that. plus we will also help you get back up on your two own feet and guide you all the way.
but sweetie, no matter what others tell you, be it forgive him for his cruel actions or leave him for the better, you have to realise that you yourself got to know what you want. don't let others influence your decision because at the end of the day, what you really want in life is what really matters. no one can make decisions for you except yourself because you know best. so as much as we all try to help you through it all, we can only say this much. the rest is really all up to you. if you want to break it off with him, be it that way. if you want to continue to be with him, thats also fine with us. because we'll be there to support your every decision - right or wrong.
trust in the LORD my dear friend. trust that HE will bring you through it as HE was the one who brought you to it. besides, the LORD will never hand you something HE knows you cannot handle. and yes its true that when the LORD closes a door, HE opens another window for you because the LORD loves you! so have faith in HIM. and i'm sure everything will work out just fine for you. :)
there. i'm done with my rants for the day. thanks lolo for your blog once again. and sorry if i seem to have been rambling on and on in this post. couldn't help it. heheh.
take care my babes. and you're all dearly missed.
okay, back to studying or perhaps to be more specific, back to regurgitating chemistry facts. :S
much much much love, kerangie(!?)
*Cause every moment we share together, is even better than the moment before. If every day was as good as today was, then i can't wait until tomorrow comes.*
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